So I have not written forever... it has been a rough few months for me and my family. Since I wrote last a lot has happened to us. A couple days before I was about to find out about if I was pregnant or not I started bleeding and so i went to the Dr. office and they took my blood and found out that I was pregnant and my levels would either go up or down from there. I knew in my mind that I was probabaly miscarrying but my family kept saying, "Stay Positive!" I tried to but I kept bleeding and bleeding and went in to the Dr. a couple of days later and found out that i had been pregnant but had miscarried! Quint surprised me by taking me to a hotel downtown just the two of us. We had a very special time together because we were hurting so bad. We went to dinner at a chinese restaraunt at the gateway and went and saw inception. We went and got dessert and went and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs! We just had a good night and tried to heal a little bit from the miscarriage. This had been very hard for both of us and it has taken time to heal from this.We have had shed many tears over this because we want a child so badly. We want jaxten to have a sibling, I can say god was with me the whole time and he lifted me the whole way and i know that he was there for me. My mom and dad were great and they helped me more than they know. My dad was such a sweetheart about the whole thing and he cried with me and felt my pain. My parents felt all of the pain that we dealt with losing the babies. My brother's were very sweet about the whole thing and they held me up the whole way and they helped the best that they could with the whole situation and I cried with them too! My brother brad really has helped me with the whole ordeal and he has been really great ! I could have not done it without my family and friends and the lord! MY ward and neighbors were really supportive as well this is def not something i would wish upon anyone~ So I took it a day at a time and slowly healed from it and I am still sad but this will make me stronger! I learned I need to have more faith and it is in god's hands. That is for sure and I know he carried me through this literally carried me!
So here is my cute nephew who was born at the end of August. This is Jeff's son that he had. He was born in lackland airbase and we do not get see him for 9 months which is really sad. My brother is in the airforce and he just moved to Florida with his wife candice. She has been alone alot because of jeff's training! I feel bad for her but she is a strong person for raising a baby in a new state. They are a super cute family!!!!!
So it was my anniversary at the end of July, it has been five years already that is so crazy how time flies by. Quint really tests me and makes me be a better person and does not let me just sit there he really pushes me to be a better person and mother to my little guy. I can tell you that I will never ever take jaxten for granted he is so special to me and i feel so blessed to have him as part of my family. He is really starting to talk a lot he really makes me laugh. He tells me that my butt is a crane thanks jaxten how rude! He is definitely the light of my life i love him sooo much. So I decided to dive right back into invitro and wanted to have my frozen embryos implanted. So the last month and a half i have been taking shots and taking estradiol pills and trying to get my uterine lining bulked up so i will be ready to implant the embryos. This cycle has been much better on my body and way less stressful. We did not know if the embryos would even survive the thaw and we were very luck they both did and that usually does not happen. we were very blessed in that aspect. I went in to the Dr. yesterday and they talked with us and implanted both of the embryos we got to see them on a big tv and that was really interesting. They did not have that last time we went in to the clinic. They gave us a picture of the embryos again and so we have that little memory to have. So i feel a little about this cycle but i am trying to stay calm and have faith in the lord and I know if it is his will it will work out in the end. i am on bed rest for the weekend and it is kind of boring but it will be well worth it. I hope it works but only time will tell.
Quint applied for a new job and he would work mon-fri and have weekends off and all holidays we will find out next week if he gets it or not. We will see... Sorry such a long post I could even say more!
