update

I am doing a quick update Last Thur I was pregnant and I went back on Saturday just assuming my levels would rise more. They told me that I was miscarrying!!! I had so much hope. My due date was suppose to be on Nov 16th. I am starting to bleed and pass the baby. The baby was 4.5 weeks when it died. Thanks for all the support!

TODAY IS THE DAY

I AM WAITING MY BLOOD RESULTS AND I AM STARTING TO GO CRAZY..... I WENT IN AT 8:30 THIS MORNING AND I AM WAITING AND WAITING. THIS IS SO NERVE RACKING. AAHHHH! SO I DECIDED TO WRITE TO PASS THE TIME BY. I CALLED THE CLINIC AND THEY SAID THERE WERE NO RESULTS YET. SO I SHOULD GET THEM SOMETIME TODAY. SO I AM TRYING TO STAY CALM.
 I HAVE BEEN SPOTTING A LITTLE BIT AND I HAVE NOT GONE INTO WORK THIS WEEK AT ALL. I HAVE BEEN ON BED REST AND TRYING TO KEEP THESE BABIES ALIVE! SO I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING THAT I CAN. EVERYONE IS ANXIOUSLY WAITING AND I WILL LET YOU KNOW AS SOON AS I KNOW!!!!!

UPDATE ON THE INVITRO

OK SO TODAY WAS A EXCITING DAY.... I WILL GET TO THAT IN A LITTLE WHILE. SO TODAY HAS BEEN A WEEK SINCE THE EMBRYO TRANSFER. I HAVE BEEN TAKING IT EASY ON BED REST FOR THE LAST WEEK. IT WAS KIND OF NICE TO BE ABLE TO TAKE A NAP BY MY SELF DURING THE DAY. I THOUGHT GOING INTO THIS THAT THE TWO WEEKS WOULD FLY BY. I AM DRIVING QUINT NUTS SAYING, " DID IT TAKE?" I ASK HIM EVERY DAY AND I AM DRIVING HIM NUTS. OUR NEW WARD WAS GREAT WITH TAKING CARE OF US B Y BRINGING MEALS. IT WAS VERY THOUGHTFUL! MY MOM AND MY FAMILY HAS BEEN SO WONDERFUL THROUGH THIS WHOLE THING. ESPECIALLY MY MOM. SHE HAS TAKEN CARE OF JAXTEN, CLEANED MY HOUSE NUMEROUS TIMES, TAKEN JAXTEN TO KJERSEN'S. SHE HAS HELPED MORE THAN SHE KNOWS..... I HAVE BEEN CRAMPING HERE AND THERE. TODAY I HAD A SCARE AND HAD A LITTLE BLEEDING. IT MADE ME VERY NERVOUS AND SCARED. I AM TRYING SO HARD TO RELY ON PRAYERS AND PUT MY FAITH IN GOD! WHICH IS A HARD THING AT TIMES.

SO IT WAS BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION AT MY FAMILY YESTERDAY AND JAXTEN WENT AND GOT A CAKE WITH HIS GRANDPA. HE HAD A LOT OF FUN! SO I DO NOT FORGET I HAD MY EGGS TAKEN FEB 23 AND PLACED FEB 28TH. I GET MY BLOOD TEST SOMETIME THIS WEEK. I REALLY AM PRAYING AND HOPING THAT IT IS GOD'S PLAN FOR US TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD ADDED TO OUR FAMILY! I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LEARNED A LOT FROM THIS TRIAL AND I FEEL VERY READY TO BECOME A MOM AGAIN. I HAVE DONE MY PART SO NOW IT IS UP TO THE LORD AND WHAT IS IN STORE FOR US. THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT!

I have not written forever.....

I HAVE NOT WRITTEN IN A WHILE! THERE IS SO MUCH THAT HAS GONE ON IN OUR LIVES SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN LAST. MY LAST INVITRO CYCLE DID NOT WORK AND IT WAS VERY HARD FOR US! WE HAVE TRIED TO HEAL FROM THAT ORDEAL AND MOVE ON AS BEST AS WE CAN! WE DECIDED WE NEEDED TO TAKE A BREAK FROM THE BABY STUFF AND NOT WORRY ABOUT IT FOR A WHILE. SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN LAST WE HAVE HAD MANY MILESTONES IN OUR LIVES. JAXTEN HAD A VERY GOOD BIRTHDAY! I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT HE TURNED THREE IN DECEMBER! HE IS A JOY TO HAVE IN OUR LIVES! THIS LAST YEAR WAS THE HARDEST HANDS DOWN YEAR I HAVE EVER ENDURED IN MY LIFE. I SWEAR EVERYTHING WOULD GO WRONG AND WE WERE DEF. BEING TESTED. WE HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS AND THIS YEAR HAS STARTED TO TURN AROUND ALREADY. QUINT GOT A JOB IN A ICU FOR ST. MARKS HOSPITAL AND WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR A LONG TIME. HE GOT HIRED OUT OF MANY APPLICANT AND HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS HIRED. THIS HAS BEEN A HUGE BLESSING IN OUR LIVES!

 AT THE END OF JANUARY WE MOVED OUT OF OUR HOUSE AND WE MOVED INTO MY BROTHER JEFF'S HOUSE. HE CALLED US THE DAY BEFORE WE MOVED AND SAID BTW, I GOT HURT AND I AM COMING HOME. THEY STILL LET US LIVE IN THEIR HOUSE AND THEY LOWERED OUR RENT WHICH HAS BEEN ANOTHER HUGE BLESSING IN OUR LIVES!


NEXT BIG MILESTONE IS MY BROTHER FINALLY GOT MARRIED! YAAAAAAH! I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HIS WIFE SHE IS A SWEETHEART. HER NAME IS ANDY AND SHE IS A SPECIAL ED TEACHER. THEY HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR ABOUT A WEEK NOW. THEY GOT MARRIED IN THE SLC TEMPLE AND HAD THEIR RECEPTION AT THEP POINTE. WHICH WAS VERY NICE. I HOPE THAT THEY WILL BE HAPPY~ 

THE NEXT BIG THING THAT HAPPENED IS I STARTED ANOTHER INVITRO CYCLE~ YES, I KNOW THAT I AM CRAZY BUT WE PAID FOR IT AND SO WE DECIDED TO GO FOR IT. I HAVE BEEN A LOT CALMER DURING THIS CYCLE AND I AM TRYING TO HAVE MORE FAITH THAT IT WILL WORK. I AM SCARED TO DEATH!!!!!! WE HAVE BEEN DOING SO MUCH BETTER AND THIS HAS BROUGHT US CLOSER AS HARD AS IT HAS BEEN ON US. THEY SLOWED DOWN MY MEDICATION AND I STILL PRODUCED 29 EGGS! OUT OF THE 29 EGGS 24 WERE MATURE AND A 100% OF THE EGGS FERTILIZED. WHICH IS UNHEARD OF BTW. SO ON DAY THREE WE HAD 1- EXCELLENT 5- GOOD 15- FAIR 3- POOR. I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE DOING PRETTY WELL. I WAS VERY SORE THIS TIME AROUND FOR MY EGG RETRIEVAL. WE WENT TODAY AND HAD THE EMBRYOS PLACED BACK IN ME TODAY. WHEN WE WENT DR. H SAID THAT WE HAD 3 FAIR BLASOCYSTS! WHICH DEPRESSED ME!

MY CUTE PARENTS

OUT OF 24 EGGS ONLY THREE MADE IT AND THEY ARE NOT THE GREATEST QUALITY! BOY THIS IS FRUSTRATING. WE DECIDED TO PUT ALL THREE IN AND AFTER THEY WERE IMPLANTED THE DR. SAID ONE OF THEM WAS UPGRADED TO A GOOD QUALITY. SO IF IT IS MEANT TO BE WE WILL HAVE A PREGNANCY IN THE END. I WILL FIND OUT ON THE 12TH OF MARCH. SO NOW IS THE WAITIN NOW WE JUST NEED TO PUT OUR TRUST IN THE LORD!

SEA WORLD

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HOTEL

ANIMAL KINGDOME

DISNEY WORLD

HARRY POTTER WORLD

SO ALL OF THESE PICTURES ARE FROM WHEN MY SWEET MOM AND DAD DECIDED TO TAKE ME TO FLORIDA WITH THEM BECAUSE OF MY FAILED IN VITRO. IT WAS THE SWEETEST THING THAT ANYONE COULD DO! IT HELPED ME MORE THAN THEY WILL EVER KNOW. I FLEW WITH JAXTEN ALONE AND HE WAS PRETTY GOOD ON THE WAY OVER! HE HAD SO MUCH FUN IN FLORIDA. LET ME TELL YOU HE IS ONE TWO YR OLD DURING THIS TIME! WE WENT TO SEA WORLD, UNIVERSAL STUDIOS, MGM, ANIMAL KINGDOM, THE BEACH AND DISNEY WORLD! HE HAD A BLAST! IT WAS AROUND HALLOWEEN TIME AND SO WE GOT TO DO SOME TRICK OR TREATING~ I WILL POST SOME MORE PICS WHEN I GET THEM. HE ABSOLUTELY LOVED THE BEACH! THE TRIP IS WHAT I NEEDED. JAXTEN WAS HORRIBLE ONT THE WAY BACK. HE WAS ONE TIRED BOY! IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. I WILL BE MUCH BETTER AT POSITNG! TIL NEXT TIME!