DAY 25-27

SO THESE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY HARD ON MY BODY! I HAVE BEEN CRAMPING SOOO BAD AND I FEEL LIKE MY OVARIES ARE GOING TO EXPLODE. I GOT A BREAK FROM THE DR. ON MONDAY AND QUINT AND I WENT TO LUNCH AND WE SAW ECLIPSE AGAIN!!!!! IT WAS FUN! IT IS NICE TO GET AWAY BY YOURSELF EVERY NOW AND AGAIN.

I HAD AN APPT. ON TUESDAY AND I PASSED OUT AT THE DR. OFFICE. THEY HAD ME LAY ON THEIR COUCH AND DRINK SOME JUICE. I DO NOT KNOW WHY I WAS SO DIZZY THAT DAY. THEY TREATED ME VERY GOOD. I WENT TO WORK NOT FEELING VERY GOOD BUT I LASTED THROUGH THE DAY. WE WENT TO QUINT'S DAD HOUSE AND I GOT A BLESSING FROM JACE, JON, AND QUINT. THAT WAS NICE TO HAVE, WE THEN WENT TO EAT SOME PIZZA WHICH WAS YUMMY!!!! I WENT TO BED WHEN I GOT HOME BECAUSE I WAS SORE.

SO TODAY I HAD A DR.  APPT AND THE EGGS ARE STILL NOT BIG ENOUGH. SO I WENT AND BOUGHT ONE DOSE FOR TONIGHT.  I WENT TO THE PHARMACY AND THEN WENT BACK TO THE DR. OFFICE TO PAY. THEN I WENT TO THE DI AND GOT US SUBWAY FOR LUNCH.  DR. HATASAKA TOLD ME MY EUTERUS LOOKS VERY GOOD! SO TONIGHT I WAS GIVING MY MEDS TO MYSELF I SPILLED IT ALL OVER MY MOM'S COUNTER. I HAVE AN ANXIETY PANICK ATTACK. IT IS AFTER HOURS AND I NEED MEDICINE SO I CALL THE AFTER HOURS NUMBER AND THEY HAD ME TALK TO HEATHER AND SHE TOLD ME TO HEAD UP THERE AND SHE WOULD DONATE SOME MEDICATION TO ME. WHICH WAS VERY NICE, I FELT VERY BAD!!!! TRAFFIC WAS HORRIBLE, MY MOM DROVE ME BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I WAS LIGHT HEADED AGAIN. HEATHER GAVE ME A SHOT AT THE OFFICE AND THEN WE WENT TO OLIVE GARDEN AND CAME BACK TO MY PARENT'S HOUSE. MY DAD GAVE ME A BLESSING AS WELL AND THEN I CAME BACK HOME. I KNOW THIS WILL TEACH ME A LESSON AND I KNOW IT WILL WORK OUT FOR THE BEST. I AM THINKING MY EGGS WILL BE READY TOMORROW AND WE WILL HAVE THE SURGERY ON SATURDAY.  I HOPE THAT THEY GROW SOME TONIGHT AND WE WILL BE GOOD. I HOPE WE GET SOME GOOD EGGS THAT WILL GROW US SOME BABIES. I HOPE!!!!

DAY 22-24

SO THIS WEEKEND HAS NOT BEEN SO FUN! I WENT ON FRIDAY TO MY DR. APPT AND THE EGGS WERE 10MM AND THEY NEEDED SOME GROWING TO DO. MY ESTRODIAL LEVEL WAS 350 THAT DAY. I GOT THE WORST HEADACHE IN MY LIFE. IT TURNED INTO A MIGRAINE. QUINT WORKED THAT NIGHT SO MY MOM TOLD ME TO STAY OVER AND MY DAD COULD GIVE ME SOME MEDICATION AND SHE WOULD WATCH JAXTEN. I TALKED TO DR. HATASAKA THAT NIGHT AND HE TOLD ME TO TAKE IMMATREX. I WAS ZONKED FROM THE PHENEGREN SHOT MY DAD GAVE ME. WHICH HURT REALLY BAD BY THE WAY... MY BUTT IS STILL SORE. THE NEXT DAY WE HAD A SWIMMING PARTY AND I TOOK JAXTEN SWIMMING AND HE HAD A GOOD TIME. THEN QUINT WORKED AGAIN LAST NIGHT AND I WATCHED "REMEMBER ME." I CRIED AT THE END! THEN I HAD A DREAM THAT I WAS DATING ROBERT PATTINSON. MY BRAIN DREAMS WIERD THINGS!!! TODAY I HAD ANOTHER DR. APPT AND MY EGGS ARE 13MM TODAY. I WAS HOPING TO STOP MY MEDICATION. NOPE, I HAVE TO GO BACK ON TUESDAY FOR ANOTHER CHECK. THEY ARE THINKING EITHER THURSDAY OR FRIDAY TO TAKE MY EGGS OUT. WELL I HOPE THEY KEEP ON GROWING. MY ESTRODIAL LEVEL IS 1400. SO THAT IS WHY I AM GETTING MY HEADACHES!!!! USUALLY YOUR LEVELS ARE AT 10 NORMALLY. SO IT WILL JUST GET WORSE. LOL. I AM GIVING JAXTEN A BATH RIGHT NOW SO I BETTER HURRY AND WASH HIM.

DAY 20-21

SO LAST NIGHT WAS A TRAUMATIC NIGHT FOR ME. YOU HAVE TO MIX HCG, LUPRON, AND FEMARA PERFECTLY. I HATE MIXING MY MEDS BECAUSE IT STRESSES ME OUT SOOOO BAD. SO QUINT USUALLY DOES IT. LAST NIGHT HE WAS AT SCHOOL SO I WAS BEING REALLY CAREFUL TO GET ALL THE MEASUREMENTS RIGHT. I WASH ON MY 4TH BOTTLE OF FEMERA AND TRYING TO GET ALL OF THE MEDICINE OUT OF THE BOTTLE AND IT LEAKS OUT OF THE NEEDLE AND I KNOW I LOST SOME MEDICINE. ONE SHOT IS $200.00 SO I DID NOT GET ALL OF MY DOSE. I AM FREAKING OUT THINKING I RUINED MY WHOLE CYCLE. SO I DO THE SHOT AND MY STOMACH SWELLS LIKE NO OTHER. IT IS SOOOO PAINFUL. YES, USUALLY THE STICKS HURT BUT THIS LASTED A 4 HOURS. I PUT ICE ON IT AND IT HURT SO BAD. QUINT TOLD ME I HIT A CAPILLARY IN MY STOMACH. FEELS MUCH BETTER TODAY.  YESTERDAY I WENT TO THE DR. FOR MY BLOOD TEST AND ULTRASOUND. MY RIGHT OVARY IS GETTING TO A SLOW START. IT ONLY HAS ABOUT FIVE EGGS AND MY LEFT HAS ABOUT 10. WE LOST THREE EGGS, SAD!!! HE SAID IT LOOKS GOOD AND TO KEEP ON MY MEDICINE. QUINT WILL BE DOING THAT TODAY.  I DO NOT LIKE MIXING THE MEDICATION. THE LAB CALLED ME YESTERDAY AND SAID MY LEVELS WERE AT 151 SO THAT IS  A GOOD NUMBER.

I WENT TO ECLIPSE WITH MY FRIENDS AND IT WAS SOOOO FUN!!!! I LOVED IT. WAS MY FAVORITE OF ALL THREE MOVIES. WE WENT TO THE 12:30 AM SHOWING. I GOT ABOUT 2 HOURS OF SLEEP AND DID GOOD YESTERDAY. I ATE LOTS OF SUGAR. THEN I CRASHED AND BURNED LAST NIGHT AND WENT TO BED AROUND 9PM. IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. I HAD A DR. APPT EARLY AND WORK ALL DAY. LOL. I AM MUCH BETTER TODAY.

SO I HAVE A DR. APPT TODAY AND I WILL BE LATE TO WORK BUT AFTER THAT WE WILL SEE HOW THE DAY GOES. I AM GLAD TO FINALLY BE DONE WITH WORK THIS WEEK.  SO WE WILL SEE HOW TODAY GOES... QUINT IS TURNING 31 TOMORROW AND WE BOTH HAVE DR. APPTS. SO WE WILL SEE IF MY EGGS ARE GROWING TOMORROW. PLUS I AM GETTING MY HAIR COLORED YAAAAAAAAH!

Day 19

So today was an ok day at work actually kind of slow day.... I am so super excited I am going to midnight showing of eclipse with cammie, karie, and charissa. We are even wearing our twilight shirts. I will post pictures!!! I am getting really excited. I have a dr. appt tomorrow at 8:15 so i am going to be dead at work tomorrow. o well it will be worth the show. They test me again tomorrow and do another ultra sound. I am getting nervous~~ I did my shot tonight and it is not too bad. Quint mixes the drugs for me because it is too stressful for me to do it and I still inject the shots into my stomach. I think I only have to do that until monday. I hope that my numbers are up tomorrow. We will see. I am having horrible headaches from the medication. Fun side effect! I am sooooooo excited for this I really hope this works!!!!!

Day 17-18

YESTERDAY WE WENT TO CHURCH AND MY VISITING TEACHERS CAME OVER.PRETTY QUIET BORING DAY. I HAVE  NOT BEEN WANTING TO WRITE BUT I PROMISED MY SELF I WOULD WRITE WHILE GOING THROUGH INVITRO.
TODAY I GOT MY NAILS DONE AND I HAD TO GET MY BLOOD DRAWN. MY ESTROIDAL LEVEL SHOULD BE AT A 100 AND IT IS AT 50. THEY INCREASED MY MEDS TO SEE IF THAT HELPS. THAT IS STRESSING ME OUT REALLY BAD. I HOPE THE INCREASE HELPS WITH MY BODY. AHHHH I AM FREAKING OUT.
I WENT TO LEATHERBY'S WITH QUINT AND JAXTEN AND IT WAS YUMMY. WELL OFF TO BED... SORRY SO SHORT!

Day 16

Today was saturday so I cleaned all this morning. I mowed the back lawn and mopped, did laundry, and cleaned my upstairs. I got quite a bit done this morning. So that was a good thing. I decided to get Jaxten's hair cut and I usually take him to cookie cutters but they were busy so I took him to great clips. Not s uch a good idea. He screamed and kicked and the lady was going all slow. I was thinking, " Hurry it u p he is two and does not have much patience!" He did not have s uch a pleasant experience. 
We went to my mom's in the afternoon I tried to swim with Jaxten but my mom's pool heater is broken so it was much too cold for a swim.  Jaxten took a nap for 4 hours and so did Quint and I. I mixed my shot today and it was a lot harder than quint made it look yesterday. I was all stressing out. He still had to help me. I wanted to the shot myself and I did. My dad did not like me lifting my shirt up in front of him.  It's not like I was taking my shirt off. lol. It was my stomach, and I did not swell as bad with this shot.  We had KFC for dinner and took Jaxten on the rides at T-ville days. I will  post pictures when i get them on my computer. He went on some cars, bugs that fly in the air, spaceships, Monster trucks, Two different train tracks. On one of them they had to stop the ride because he was standing up.lol.  We went on the merry go round. Quint had to leave early and my mom met me down at the rides and we got some dip n' dots and went up to my mom's  house for fireworks. Jaxten really liked them and some family from my parents ward sat on their lawn and Jaxten was cuddling with some guy and making himself at home. He kept calling him daddy. It was pretty embarassing. Quint is playing cards at my brothers right now. I went to my appt. and they think I have 17-18 eggs but we will see how many grow. I go back on monday for bloodwork and wednesday for a vaginal ultrasound and more blood work. This is crazy that the implantation is coming up so fast. So good so far, I am just trying to keep faith. Thats all I can do!!!!

DAY 15

TODAY WAS A BIG DAY!!!! I HAD MY SUPRESSION CHECK TODAY AND WENT REALLY WELL. THEY TESTED MY BLOOD AND DR. HATASAKA DID A VAGINAL ULTRASOUND ON ME.  I GOT TO SEE MY UTERUS ON THE MONITOR IT WAS PRETTY COOL. MY UTERUS LOOKED REALLY GOOD. HE SAID, " MT UTERUS COULD NOT LOOK ANY BETTER!' YAAAAAH! THENT HE LOOKED AT MY LEFT OVARIE AND THERE WERE ABOUT 7 EGGS OR SO. MY RIGHT OVARY HAS ATLEAST TEN AT THIS POINT SO THAT IS GOOD NEWS. I START THREE MEDICATIONS TODAY. HCG,LUPRON, AND FEMERA. (THE EGG GROWING MEDS) I HAVE TO MIX IT PERFECTLY SO QUINT IS GOING TO HELP ME WITH THAT.  SO I HOPE MY BODY DOES NOT HAVE BAD REACTIONS AND I WILL BE GOOD. IT IS GETTING CLOSER SO THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. SO THE NEWS IS GOOD SO FAR. YAAAAH. I AM TRYING TO HAVE FAITH IN THE LORD THAT IT WILL WORK.  I HOPE I HOPE THIS WORKS!!!!